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STEPPING FORWARD. :) (for the guy I used to call “BF”)

 Ehem.. what’s with this? uhmm. just like before, blog for the guy i used to love. :D hehe.. okay, here we go.. 

There are those times when I feel like nothing could possibly go my way. I look outside and feel that there is no way the world is still spinning the way it was when I was happy once. I try so hard to get past the emptiness that I feel within my soul but know that nothing is ever going to be the same. I hate knowing that the one person so special to me doesn’t feel even a fraction of the emotions that seep from me, and I wish that there was a way to tell him, and not fear losing the friendship between me. 

I’m lost, scared, alone and I can’t take it anymore.. And the way he treats me is destroying me. He makes me feel like I mean so much to him but I feel that that’s impossible. He holds such a vulnerable thing captive and that thing is my heart. He’s so close to breaking it but so close to setting me free I’m willing to risk it. It hurts to be so torn between so many emotions. I wish it could all just stop.I know that you’re happy, and I want you to know that, when you’re happy, I’m happy, because I would do anything for you, because you mean so much to me. It hurts me to know that the one thing that brought a smile to my face and made me happy, is GONE.

I only want to know, if you would have ever made me an option?

Would you have been able to love me?

Care for me?

Hold my hand?

Or is image all that counts?

Let me know, so that I can know if it’s worth still hoping that one day, we could at least be friends, because we clearly are not (because you won’t let me. :/) and it’s clear that you totally rejected me.

I know we haven’t known each other for a long time-but my love for you was SO strong, -alam mo yan.. and I was never in love with someone else as much as I was with you. Disregard the past.

haaay… yung totoo?

Well, here it is..

There were nights that I dream about you, and that’s wierd @_@. I spend endless afternoons thinking about you.

I know someday, I don’t think about you at all, could that be possible? , haha..I don’t think so. :D because I usually don’t go a day without thinking about you, or seeing you in my mind. naks! :D

When I first met you, I thought you would be different. I told you diba? :) I’d been rejected before because of my self image, and for once in my life, I thought it was personality that counted for you, and not image, but apparently not.:/

 For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone. :|

I made a choice to finally LET GO kahit super hirap!, because I can’t stand the pain, it’s time for my last tear to fall and smile again. 

So… from now on… when you think of me… just remember that I could’ve been the best thing you ever had.

Pero the sad part is.. While I was holding on.. all you did was let go. :(

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you.

I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I don’t have. It’s really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don’t want to let go but it’s even more painful to ask someone to STAY if they never wanted to stay. 

I’m holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won’t. —i knew it. :/

Have you ever hated somebody so much that you wish they would just leave and never come back but yet, loved them so much, you knew you’d die if they did? well, that’s worst.. hahahha.. tsss

I’m going to smile, because I want to make you HAPPY, LAUGH, so you won’t see me cry. I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me, I’m going to smile. coz that what makes me beautiful, haha.. :D

I hate the way I could never hate you. URGH!

Love is putting up with someone’s bad qualities because they somehow complete you. Life sucks a lot of the time, right?  

But, you know, if you can get through a heartbreak, you can get through almost anything. 

Iniisip ko nalang,
“I only love you because I fear that you just might be the only one that will ever love me.”

Pero, mali eh.. kontrahin naten.. :)

Every guy I am with for the rest of my life will be compared to you. OFCOURSE! 

One day you’ll look back, and you’ll see. You’ve missed out on a lot. And you’ll regret it. hehe.. that’s what you called confidence! :)

But seriously, 4 months is long.. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING! GOOD BYE and GOODLUCK. :D I wish we can atleast be FRIENDS. Just like before. :) 



No one can promise they’ll never hurt you, because at one time or another, they will. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end.
Sometimes you just need to be with the person who makes you smile even if it means waiting.

Sometimes you just need to be with the person who makes you smile even if it means waiting.

Seven (7) UP’s for a wonDerful life:

1. WAKE UP!… Decide to have a good ay.
2. DRESS UP!… Put on a smile each day.
3. SHUT UP!… Learn to listen.
4. STAND UP!.. For what you believe in.
5. LOOK UP!… To the Lord.
6. REACH UP!… For something higher.
7. LIFT UP!… Your prayers.




What’s the secret to happiness?

for me it’s when you learn how to love and be loved.. :))

Ask me a question that has an answer..

Ask me a question that has an answer..